OMGosh!

Sometimes I feel like just giving up on everything, I don't know what's wrong. Is this depression? Is this satan getting in my head - probably! He is evil and twisted like that! Sometimes I just want to take a step back for like, I don't know - a month! And just see what happens. As a Christian, I feel like I shouldn't be angry, I should stand against the forces of evil and stand on the truths of God's Word, (Trust in the Lord with all your heart, lean not on your own understanding, and He will direct your path. Prov 3:5-6). I know that I should this.

I am aggravated with several different things going on in my life. Mostly, things with my kids. It upsets and aggravates the already unsettling issues I have with them, especially when other continually point out their "issues". Does anyone else have children who misbehave, act up, be silly and sometimes are unmanageable? Nope, I guess it's just me and they've NEVER been in a situation like that! Some are more tolerant than others. The others just plain ol' get on my nerves. Then the ones who try to help are overbearing and patronizing. Like they really care. It is ultimately my choice what steps I choose to take regarding MY children and their needs. I don't like feeling like my hand is being forced to take some alternative action that my heart is not set on and that I am not mentally prepared to deal with. I want to make uninfluenced, yet, well researched decisions.

Even us Christians have issues with anger. Mine seems to be settling a little deeper and making me a lot more snappy than usual..... let me rephrase that - snappy like I used to be - B4 I was a Christian.

Lord, I am begging for your help. You know what this is all about. I need direction, please skywrite it for me. In the mighty, wonderful, powerful, saving name of Christ. Amen.