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Saturday, May 5, 2012

Why?

When we go through different things, why is it so hard to come back strong? Why does the hurt linger, like tiny little pinpricks all over you. When does the hurt go away? When does the healing begin? Every time I think I've made a step in the right direction, something sets me back. I feel so lost right now and so out of fellowship and so out of sorts with people whom I care about. It's really crazy. I feel as though I was called to do something and others felt as though maybe I wasn't. So who was right? Now I see someone else has taken my place, or the place where I felt called to. I'm glad to see things kicking off again and happy for it taking a new direction. Maybe I'm jealous? I don't know what I am anymore. I still don't know where I belong either. I wish this ache in my heart would go away. It's hindering my relationship with my God. I've been feeling like I'm slipping for a long while now. god help me heal, please.

It's been months!

Well it's been a while since I've written.