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Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Oh Lover of My ... Nevermind

love.  relationships.  your significant other.  the one you cherish.  you hurt them.  maybe not on purpose... or maybe it is.  cut them to the core with your words.  burned them down with your cutting eyes.  shut them up with your sharp tongue and careless whatever's.  goading them into thinking it's their fault in every disagreement.  you are wrong and they are right.  every time.  you lack a proper tone with which to communicate that doesn't come off brass and harsh.  that look of disdain rolls across your face and settles there and you wonder why your love doesn't smile anymore.  you've spent what seems to be most of the time judging their every move.  questioning what they do and their practices.  too tied up and immersed in their world that you loose sight of your own.  you adopt and adapt to their way of life.  losing yourself in the process.  your words on paper no longer mimic your actions in person.  your temper is quick your words condescending.  you feel challenged when your person does things you don't like. pushing them closer to the edge of the cliff with every negative word. every snarky comment.  every little thing matters and becomes magnified in the heat of the moment. maybe they're not what you expected.  maybe you're not who they thought you were either.